My baby was taken from me.Only had her in my arms for seven days. I was in a traumatised state after birth (PTSD, dissociative disorder, PND and PNP). I also had to have two operations after the birth (these occured within six weeks). Before the second operation I was given ECT and after this operation ECT recommenced the day after. Family court got involved; I was powerless, traumatised, physically unwell and brain damaged from the ECT. My baby was taken from me, the precious birth memories and to top it all off in the hospital I was told if I were to have another baby the same relapses could occur again and was placed on the depo provera injection; this caused long term side effects and I thought I had no choice in contraception, had a hysterectomy. My fertility was also stolen. All was stolen because I trusted (and coercion; would do anything to have baby back in my arms, my heart Knows this) the psychiatric and medical systems while I was triggered (previous traumas) by intimate nature of birth and was retraumatised and traumatised. Treating traumas with traumas is evil. No words describe how I feel. Ongoing isolating grief....
My baby was taken from me.Only had her in my arms for seven days. I was in a traumatised state after birth (PTSD, dissociative disorder, PND and PNP). I also had to have two operations after the birth (these occured within six weeks). Before the second operation I was given ECT and after this operation ECT recommenced the day after. Family court got involved; I was powerless, traumatised, physically unwell and brain damaged from the ECT. My baby was taken from me, the precious birth memories and to top it all off in the hospital I was told if I were to have another baby the same relapses could occur again and was placed on the depo provera injection; this caused long term side effects and I thought I had no choice in contraception, had a hysterectomy. My fertility was also stolen. All was stolen because I trusted (and coercion; would do anything to have baby back in my arms, my heart Knows this) the psychiatric and medical systems while I was triggered (previous traumas) by intimate nature of birth and was retraumatised and traumatised. Treating traumas with traumas is evil. No words describe how I feel. Ongoing isolating grief....
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